30 Aug 1994

800 - 800 free warmup

600 - 24 x 25's 3 free/ 3 choice drills on :40

500 - 10 x 50's free/choice drill on :55

1000 - 1 x 500 - get time 5 x 100's on 2:00

300 - warm down

3200 yards total

2 Jul 1994

300 - warmup

300 - 12 x 25's - 6 fly, 6 free

600 - 8 x 75's on 1:15

2300 - 6 x 3 x 50's - fly/back, back/breast, breast/free

6 x 250's breath 7,5,4,3,2,1

900 - 6 x 150's kick descend by 50

100 - cool down

4500 total

30 June 1994

400 - warmup

300 - kick

200 - drill

100 - fly kick

1600 - 8 x 125's fly : 50 lft, rt, 25 fly

8 x 75's kick, drill, kick

400 - kick

400 - 4 x 100's kick on 1:40

3400 total

29 June 1994

600 - warmup using 25's drill

500 - 10 x 50's fly drill on 1:00

1200 - 24 x 50's on :45

1st 50 - breath only 7 times

2nd 50 - breath 5 times each 25

3rd 50 - fly

@ 300 Fly turns for 10 minutes

600 - 3 x 200's on 2:50

300 - 3 x 100's fly kick w/fins on 2:15

100 - warm down

3600 total

28 June 1994

900 - 3 x 300's warmup

1st 300 - swim

2nd - 25 swim, 25 choice

3rd - kick, choice, swim by 25's

300 - 6 x 50's on :45

300 - 12 x 25 IM's

600 - 4 x 150's on 2:10

500 - 5 x 100's pull on 1:25

400 - warmdown

3000 total

31 May 1994

400 - 200 IM, 200 free

750 - 10 x 75's kick 1st 25 fly, choice, fly

1000 - 4 x 250 IMs

1200 - 12 x 100's descend 1 - 4

1st 100 - 1:45

2nd - 1:30

3rd - 1:20

600 - LA freeway

100 - warmdown following Kristen

4000 total

4 May 1994

500 - swim

200 - kick

500 - 5 x 100's free on 2:00 under 1:05

400 - 8 x 50's kick free & fly w/fins on 1:00

600 - 3 x 200's free w/fins on 3:00

400 - 8 x 50's fly w/fins on 1:00

200 - 4 x 50's fly w/o fins on 2:00

200 - ez

3000 total

23 Apr 1994

500 - swim

750 - 10 x 75's alternate lft, rt arm, reg on 1:30

100 - ez

1200 - 4 x 300's descending on 4:30

200 - fly kick

200 - free kick

50 - ez

1200 - 4 x 150 free on 2:00, 4 x 100 free on 1:30, 4 x 50 free on :45

200 - ez

4500 total

22 Apr 1994

400 swim

400 kick

1000 10 x 100's free first 5 with zoomers on 2:00

800 16 x 50's fly and free kick on 1:15

400 8 x 50's fast on 2:00

3000 total

Today was a good workout but still need a partner.

20 Apr 1994

600 - 400 swim, 200 kick

600 - 8 x 75's - 25 free, fly, free on 1:30

400 - 8 x 50's free on 1:00

200 - 8 x 25's fly on :30

600 - 3 x 200's descending on 3:00

500 - 10 x 50's kick on 1:30

100 - fast (under :57)

50 - fly (under :28)

50 - ez

3100 total

18 Apr 1994

400 - swim

200 - kick

600 - 8 x 75's touch and pull

2000 - 4 x 5 x 100's on 2:00 holding 1:05

100 - 4 x 25's free no breaths

100 - Animal test - 4 x 25's 2 fly, 2 free extremely fast on 1:00

200 - Pull

3600 total

I felt real good about this swim. I think I have swimmer's ear because I have terrible ear aches in both ears. I talked to Sherri Stone and she gave me this guy's address to call about getting caps when I get home.

16 Apr 1994

900 - 500 choice, 200 kick, 200 pull

1000 - 50,100,150,200 and back down free with :30 rest on each set

500 - 5 x 100's on 2:00 get 1:05 exactly

800 - 16 x 50 IM on 1:15

500 - 10 x 50 suicides

200 - ez

100 - 100 fast (:56)

3900 total

I felt really good about this workout. I felt strong and was able to complete everything on the goal times I wanted. Came home and was very hungry and tired. I think I'll call Kristen Prier up to see if she is coming home to SL soon so I can get together with her so we can workout together.

300 - stretch swim

500 - 10 x 50's fly on 2:00

100 - fast

400 - 2 x 200's fly kick

400 - 4 x 100's free on 3:00 fast

200 - ez

2900 total

Daily Total = 6800 yards

15 Apr 1994

800 - 400 swim, 400 choice

500 - rubber band swim for 7:00

900 - 6 x 75's - 25 free, fly, free on 2:00. 6 x 50's - all fly on 1:00, 6 x 25's - free on :30

750 - 10 x 75's - 25 fly on :30, 50 free on 1:30 extremely fast

200 - ez

300 - 2 x 150's ez

400 - 4 x 100's descending 1-4 on 2:00

500 - 10 x 50's free on :45

4350 total

14 Apr 1994

1000 - 5 x 200's descending 1-5

100 - fly kick on back

100 - fly kick on front

200 - 2 x 100's fly

200 - free

200 - pull

200 - flutter kick

200 - touch and pull

100 - sprint (under :57!!!)

100 - fly kick on front

100 - fly kick on back

200 - ez

2700 total

I nearly gave up around 1200 mark, but kept going and it got a little better. I was really angry last night as I thought of the girls here at Ricks. I asked Elaine out again and she said she had something going. She was on the other line and I really think it was a guy that shw likes. I talked to Jaron and he broke it out to me that her heard she has a guy, but they aren't totally hitched. I think she is doing something with her boy friend. That is exactly what he is a boy. 80% of the guys here at Ricks are poofters and weak suckers.

Today at inservice we are having a pizza party. That should be fun anyway. I bought some cereal this morning because I hate breakfasts now because I have no fun cereals so I went crazy and bought two family size cereals. Corn Pops and Rice Crispy treats cereal. I hid them from Murray, but if he eats it, I'll go rip his ugly face off his weak body. I hate to sound like this, but I get very angry sometimes and I am still getting over last night.

800 - IM warmup

1000 - 5 x 200's free on 4:00 descending 1-5

750 - 10 x 75's lft arm, fly, rt arm on 1:45

500 - 5 x 25 fly on :30, 50 free on 1:30, 25 fly

100 - sprint (beat mornings 100 sprint)

200 - ez

3350 total

6050 daily total

Inservice was good. Brother Zirker announced the Head guards. We then had some pizza and I felt extremely weak. I only ate one piece. We then had the EMT guys show us how to do one man CPR and all that stuff. I get to go tomorrow at 7:00 to recertify and get my certificate.

I went home and took a nap. I was so very tired. I felt like I had mono. When I woke up I was revived. I don't know what happened.

This afternoon swim I went at 6:00 pm and then the new lifeguards were given a situation where another EMT guy went off the board and faked a good hitting on his head. The two new guards took there sweet time getting him on the board which is OK I guess. But we were in there for ages. I think the neck braces should be connected to the boards so you don't have to get out and search for them when he is planted on the board.

Jadie and I went to hang up the posters for the Swim club for next semester. I swam very strongly this afternoon and felt great about the effort I put in. I swim with one of the guards (I forgot his name) on Saturday at 2:00.

13 Apr 1994

300 - swim

200 - kick

500 - 10 x 50's specialty on :45

500 - 5 x 100's free fast on 3:00

100 - ez

500 - 5 x 100's free descend 1-5 on 2:15

100 - warm down

2200 total

Disappointed because of the short workout but I'll make up for it tomorrow.

We had a swim club meeting and Jadie immediately went out and made posters to put up. I was very happy in her promptness. I graded all the finals for the swimming class I teach. It was hectic, but fun. They are hiring lifeguards for summer so there are alot of lifeguards on duty.

12 Apr 1994

400 - swim

800 - 8 x 75's fly, 8 x 25's under water dolphin kick

200 - fly kick

200 - fly till you die

50 - fly fast

200 - ez

1850 Total

11 Apr 1994

1000 - Warmup, kick

600 - 12 x 50's fly hypoxic 6, 4, 2 on 2:00

200 - kick fly

400 - 4 x 100's under 1:05 on 2:00

1000 - 200, 300, 300, 200

3200 total

Ward closing social tonight and it was pretty good. Talked to Sherri Stone about swim team.

7 Apr 1994

100 - ez

500 - 5 x 100's free fast

250 - 10 x 25's fly w/no breath

100 - 4 x 25's free fast

100 - fast

100 - ez

1150 total

6 am workout. I love it. Can't workout tonight because I am going to the temple with Shawn and all of us roommates. It is Shawn's first time in the temple so we all thought we would all go with him.

Triathalon results

Today I swam the swim part of a triathalon leg. I took first. I got a 11:16.04 in the 900. I tapered for this event this week, however I did it opposite of what I wanted. I sprinted too much with too much rest. I was dying and felt like giving up at the 300 mark.

I lapped the guy who was 2nd fastest around the 250 yard mark and kept ahead the rest of the time. The guy that took second was :41 behind me.

My biker and runner, didn't do so good. They were 2:30 behind the winner in their events combined. So what we placed depends on whether the guy who took second in swimming was on the same team that beat my biker and swimmer. The biker was Casey Sullivan and the runner was Kim Giebel. Casey wiped out on his bike and his knee was bleeding.

We find out tonight what places we took at the Country dance. I can't country dance, so I'll just show up at 10:00. I bet we took 2nd. If we took 3rd I'll be ticked. The prize for first is $25 each. 2nd gets cd carriers, 3rd get a small cd carrier.

I'll update you in a few hours on what we took.

I went to the dance at 10 to 10 and a girl aqsked me to dance. I said sure. I told her I don't know how to do the 2 step so I tried it and I made a total fool of myself as I stepped on her toes the whole way around the circle. After it was over she said thanks and took off. I was so embarassed. I didn't know whether to apologize or thank her or what but it went so quickly I was relieved it was over cause she was turning red with being seen with this fool in her arms.

After that song they announced the winners. We took 2nd in team. We lost by 1:30 to first place and beat 3rd by 1:15. We all won Portable CD cases. I then went with Casey and Kim and their friends to get ice cream, Casey's treat. I then went with them to see Pelican brief at the movie theatre. I didn't get home until 2:00 am. I had an enjoyable Saturday evening. Met a few girls, ugly, but still it was fun to get out.

6 Apr 1994

100 - free

500 - 20 x 25's fly w/no breathe

200 - fast

100 - fast

100 - 4 x 25's fly

1000 total

Getting psyched for the triathalon on the 9th. Shaved last night and feel smooth.

5 Apr 1994

100 - ez

900 - swim (get time)

500 - 10 x 50's fly overstretch on 2:00

100 - ez

100 - fast

1700 TOTAL

I got 11:40 on the 900 and was very upset with that time. My arms were very sore from yesterday's double suicide that I swam slow even though I tried to go fast. I will try again tonight.

4 Apr 1994

600 - swim, pull, kick

500 - double suicide

200 - ez

1300 total

Arms very sore. 20 push ups every other 25. 10 gutter ups every other 25. Double suicide. Triceps exceedingly sore. Began taper for Saturday's meet.

Got back Sunday avo from cabin with Mom, DD, Eric, Elayna, G & G Richins and bearly. Not enough snow to snowmobile, but played pool anyway. I had fun, and was glad to get back to school.

31 Mar 1994

400 - swim

800 - 2 x 400's pull getting 4:45 on 6:00

300 - 6 Australian 50's on 1:00

1600 total

Tired again, don't know what's wrong.

30 Mar 1994

500 - warmup

1000 - 10 x 100's free under 1:05 on 1:45

200 - ez

I had a huge 7000 yd workout made but only did this because I lost energy, and my knee was acting up on me. Sad because of the weakness and angry because my knee is acting up again. I was happy about the 100's. I am swimming tomorrow morning at 6:00 am and then get picked up at 10:00 to go to the cabin. I am excited. Goodnight

29 Mar 1994

600 - swim

600 - 6 x 100's free on 1:45 all under 1:05

100 - ez

250 - 10 x 25's fly one breath on :45

250 - 10 x 25's no breath on 1:00

400 - 2 x 200's on 3:00 under 2:15

2200 total

I got a triathalon team going. The biker took first in the Beaver dick bike race last semester and the runner is on the cross country team. I got them from Tara at the pool. She is trying to do it all herself too. So this team here will take first no worries. I have set a goal time of 10:30 for 900 yards.

The 6 x 100's were good. I was nailing 1:01 on average. I should find out soon about the swim team. Tonight I may be going to the temple. So tonights workout will be smaller. Here it is:

29 March 1994

500 - swim

500 - 10 x 50's touch and pull on 1:00

250 - 10 x 25's stretch descending strokes every other 25 first one - 20

250 - 10 x 25's free w/no breath on :45

500 - 10 x 50's fly on 2:00 all under :34

400 - free warmdown

2900 total

5100 overall total

One of the guy swimmers is a new lifeguard and he worked today. It kind of made me mad because I see all these lifeguards who think they're bad because they're guards, when the patrons (such as myself) are in better shape than they are. I honestly am afraid that Zirker might not make me head guard next year. All I know is that I am going to get a 3.0 or higher to get out of fetchin probation and then get certified over the summer so he has no excuse. I won't work, unless I am head guard. Because it pays more, plus I don't want a weak sucker to be head guard.

I can't find a ride to the temple tonight. All the elders in this ward have priorities screwed up. I don't know anyone who wants to go out of their way to go to the temple. My only hope is that Bart comes home in the next few minutes and then we go. But I think he is getting his priorities screwed up like the rest of us.

Went to Craigo's to say good bye to Brandi. She is going back home because she is dropping out of school.

I paid $1.00 for one piece of pizza and was quite unsettled with that.

28 Mar 1994

900 - 900 free warmup

900 - 12 x 75's fly (lft, regular, rt)

500 - 200 on 3:00, 150 on 2:00, 100 on 2:00, 50 on 1:30

500 - 50 on 1:00, 100 on 1:30, 150 on 2:00, 200 on 2:30

100 - ez

500 - 200 on 3:00, 150 on 2:15, 100 on 1:30, 50 on :45

500 - 50 on :45, 100 on 1:30, 150 on 2:15, 200 on 3:00

100 - ez

500 - 10 x 50's fly on 2:00

100 - fast

200 - ez

4800 total

This was an excellent workout. I swam the whole thing and still had energy left over. Sioeli Kaumavae sent me a tape today and he is a good friend. I wrote Charmayne and Kaumavae a letter and sent it today.

Tara might be the biker for our triathalon. I'll find out tonight. We had an easter egg hunt at our sisters tonight for FHE. It was real fun and then we colored some boiled eggs and had a war with them. Great fun. Goodnight.

26 Mar 1994

500 - warmup

500 - 10 x 50 suicides

250 - 10 x 25's fly one breath down on :45

100 - ez

250 - 10 x 25's fly no breath on :45

100 - ez

1000 - free

100 - superstroke

100 - free sprint w/dive

100 - ez

800 - 16 x 50's free on :45

200 - ez

4000 total

25 Mar 1994

500 - wu

1200 - 6 x 200's pull on 4:00

600 - 6 x 100's free on 2:00

100 - ez

500 - 10 x 50's alternate free and fly on 2:00

100 - ez

3000 total

I had hardly any energy and I wan't really in the mood. Sarah was here today and I have a hard time forgiving her. She doesn't even talk to me anymore. Oh well. Anndee didn't come and I had another boring weekend night. I went to bed at 9:30.

24 Mar 1994

500 - warmup

250 - 10 x 25's fly only one breath down on 1:00

100 - ez

250 - 10 x 25's fly no breaths on 1:00

250 - 5 x 50's alternate free and fly on 1:00

100 - pull ez

100 - sprint (:59)

250 - warmdown

1800 total

Jadie let me borrow her knee wrap and it seemed to help quite a bit compared to yesterday's pain. But it still hurt in between sets. I am going to go buy one at the book store today.

I have no classes today because they are all cancelled so I am going to be trying to keep myself busy today. I am going to get this swim team thing turned in so that we can get busy with recruiting. I am also going to Inservice at 2:00.

I will then swim this evening at 5-7. That is my day. Pretty boring huh.

Inservice

100 - free

50 - breast

50 - back

25 - fly

25 - sidestroke

250 total

Afternoon

200 - free warmup

200 - 2 x 100's fast on 2:00

1200 - 8 x 75's control on 1:30

8 x 50's build on 1:00

8 x 25's race on :30

200 - 2 x 100's fast

200 - ez

200 - 2 x 100's fast

2200 total

I met Anndee Shingleton from Castlerock, Colorado. She is up for the seekend with her friends mother to see her brother. She swam quick and I told her of next semesters swim team. By the way, I turned in the constitution and roster of officers at the ASRC office today. Brother Zirker says it is good what is happening. I wait for them to contact me to tell me if it is approved.

Anyhow I was talking to Anndee and she is coming her next fall and she has been swimming ever since she was 6. She swam pretty dang quick.

I found out that it is $8.00 to enter into the triathalon on April 9th. I called Don Leslie who is on the track team and he can't do the running because of a track meet down in Provo. So it looks like we won't take first afterall since all the runners are going to Provo. I guess I'll just do it with Sarah or maybe not, I don't know.

My knee didn't hurt one bit at the afternoon workout and I was really happy about that. I got in a terrible mood the last couple days because of it. But I am happy now because my ear no longer hurts ( I had a terrible ear ache) and my knee no longer is in pain. So I am thankful. It has been a pretty good day afterall.

Day's total - 4,250 Yes!

23 Mar 1994

400 - 400 free Warmup

900 - 12 x 75's 25 left, right, ripple

50 - ez

600 - 6 x 100's kick on 2:00

50 - ez

500 - 5 x 100's descending 1 - 5 on 3:00

800 - 16 x 50's IM fly, fly. Fly, back. Bk, bk.

50 - Breast

500 - 5 x 100's descending 1 - 5 on 3:00

150 - ez

4,000 total

I only did about 800 yards of this workout. My knee began acting up on me and I was in real pain. I was very angry. I called home immediately and told mom I am going to see the doctor. She said OK but I have to come home to see him. I agreed but I can't find a ride. Jadie has a wrap bandage I can use for a while. I borrowed it for tomorrow mornings workout.

22 Mar 1994

500 - free warmup

500 - 10 x 50's suicidal first 25 gutter lift, 2nd 25 - 10 push ups

300 - kick

500 - 5 x 100's shirt workout

100 - sprint

200 - warmdown

2100 total

Afternoon Workout

400 - 400 warm up (2 x 200 IMs)

800 - 16 x 50's IM

200 - 200 ez

1000 - 10 x 100's kick on 2:00

200 - 2 x 100's free

2600 total

4700 total

2nd workout was very unmotivating for me. I had no energy. Especially when Sarah came to swim. It is like I am still emotionally connected or something. I was fine until she came and then her presence took all my energy and thoughts. Very angry. Came home and went straight to bed rather than take my life. Retired at 7:30 pm.

21 Mar 1994 - Gettin' rude

800 - 500 swim, kick

800 - 16 x 50's fly 15 kick, 35 fly

400 - 4 x 100's pull on 2:00 descend 1-4

400 - 4 x 100's fast on 3:00

100 - 4 x 25's over unders

500 - 10 x 50's alternate fly and free on 1:30

100 - free sprint under :58

200 - warmdown

3300 total

I was tired and had very little energy but I finished the workout. I didn't swim Saturday because I went to Pocatello to see Grandma and Grandpa Richins. I prayed at their homecoming. Everyone there made fun of my haircut. All in good fun though. It was good to see them. I rode with Lusks. Brenda and I took top half of our class in the dance competition Saturday. Mom and Verda had a ball.

I saw Sarah today, and we passed a few words to each other but we are very distant now, and I feel bad because of my attitude to her now. She started it though. That is no excuse, but we aren't even friends anymore it seems. It is really sad how a relationship can be so close and so distant within one month. I wasn't the one who made the rash decision to end it, she did. She began to close her door so I slammed it for her.

18 Mar 1994

1000 - 500 warmup, 300 kick, 200 pull

500 - 10 x 50's lungbusters

Shirt workout

600 - 2 x 3 x 100's 2 shirts on first 100, 1 on 2nd and last 100 free all on 3:00.

500 - 10 x 50's fly lft arm, rt arm on 1:30

200 - kick

50 - fly sprint (under :29)

50 - ez

100 - fast (under 1:00)

200 - warmdown

3200 total

17 Mar 1994

1000 500 swim, kick

500 10 x 50's suicidal (every 25- 10 tri-extensions, other 25 10 pushups)

750 10 x 75's kick on 2:15

50 ez

800 4 x 200's pull descend on 4:00

100 fast ( under 1:00)

300 ez

3500 total

This was a good workout. There was hardly anyone in the pool to motivate me, but I motivated myself. The suicides were very hard, but the kicking right after that made my arms get back into the stretch mode for the 200's.

The ROTC fags were taking the pool till 6:30 so this was a late night workout. I swam from 6:30 to 8:30. I wanted to go see the fugitive tonight with a date, but it starts at 9:00 and it would be too late.

I am doing the triathalon with Jeremy and his friend. It is April 9th. His friend is 2nd in the nation for biking (so Jeremy says) and I know I'll kick butt in the swim which is 800 yards. Jeremy is a pretty good runner, so we should do well.

I have the dance competition in a couple days. Mom and Cara are coming up to see it and take me down to Pocatello to see Grandma and Grandpa. There came in today and are home now.

16 Mar 1994

1000 - 500 free, 5 x 100's kick on 3:00

500 - 10 x 50's free on 1:00

300 - 3 x 100's free pull on 3:00

300 - 3 x 100's kick on 3:00

200 - 8 x 25's fly on :30

250 - 5 x 50's sprint on 2:00

500 - 500 ez

3050 total

Bryan didn't come so Jadie made this workout for me, cause I hate making them on the spot. The 25's fly were the hardest part. I took too much rest on the 50 sprints though. I got finished just as a swim class came in. It was a good workout and I didn't get tempted to quit early.

15 Mar 1994

6:00 am rise and shine sucker!

600 - swim

400 - 2 x 200's pull with ankles tied

100 - 50 fly tied ankles, 50 fly normal

100 - ez

100 - fast

100 - warm down

1400 total

Last night I called Sarah and she was sleeping (yeah right). I was angry and went in the kitchen and it was a craphole as normal and I was having a frustrating day as it was and yelled out "Do your own fetchin dish!" Went into my room and Shawn comes in to mock and I was pissed. I pushed him out of the doorway and said "get the hell out of here!" I tried to go to bed and then Murray comes in and picks up my phone and says "What's her number?" I said "forget it, just let me sleep" After a minute of persisting to call her to let her have it, he left and I listened to Nine Inch Nails again. I have got to do something about this. Maybe I should trade Jaron back that CD. It makes me keep that anger in and it isn't good.

But this morning I felt a little better and went swimming at 6:00. It was crowded and then about 5 minutes after I got in I was the only one in the pool. I didn't have much energy because I had no food in me except for a pancake I just ate, but I can't derive energy from something like that in minutes so I only did 1400. I planned on swimming a mile straight but after 600 got a sideache.

I might as well type up this afternoons workout.

400 - 200 IM, 200 free

750 - 10 x 75's kick 1st 25 fly, choice, fly

1000 - 4 x 100 IMs on 2:00, 2 x 100 IM's on 2:00, 200 IM

1200 - 12 x 100's descend 1 - 4

1st 100 - 2:00

2nd - 1:45

3rd - 1:30 last one on 1:00

50 - 2 underwater pulls

50 - ez

3450 total

Today was a good day. I wrote Sarah a little note today. It said, "Sarah -

Saturday comes quickly. I'll just dance with my cousin.

'Sides you would rather be with your friends. Right. Gords"

So that was the last straw and I was the one to take it. I have a problem looking back and wondering what she is thinking, but I am getting very close to forgeting her. I called Emily Adams tonight to ask her out to see the Fugitive but she wasn't home. I left a message.

14 Mar 1994

900 - 500 swim, 200 pull, 200 kick

600 - 3 x 200's descending on 4:00

400 - 4 x 100's descending on 2:00

500 - 10 x 50's alternate free and fly on 1:00 and 2:00

100 - ez

500 - 10 x 50's fly kick on 1:15

200 - 2 x 100's fast (under 1:00)

300 - ez

3500 total

I nearly gave up on the 100's but persisted thankfully. Sarah was lifeguarding and I tried not to show any attention to her. After she left she came back and swam for a bit with Kelly. Who also made me angry as she was telling me her reason for not playing cards yesterday was because she didn't know why I called her. To play cards you stupid wench! Not everything a guy asks has fetchin double meanings.

Sarah told me "Don't make yourself a stranger." Look who's talking. I said sorry and kept on swimming. I did the last 2 100's on :55.

Sarah asked me just before I got out if she could still do the dance competition this weekend with me. I said I don't know if we can get it down by then. I think she knows I'm pissed and that is good. I don't want to be rude but I don't want her to think she has me this time.

She asked me to call her tonight. I bet it will be a lengthy discussion about what is wrong.

Pouting

800 - 500 swim, 300 kick

1000 - 10 x 100's free on 3:00 getting below 1:05

100 - ez

1900 total

I had a 3800 workout made up but only did this much because I was kind of tired from playing full court BB with the guys here. I played pretty good for an RM with not much playing time after the mission.

Also Sarah began working after the last 100 so I quit because I don't even want to swim in her presence anymore. She waved at me and I nodded and spit water in her direction when she wasn't looking. I got out when she wasn't looking either so I wouldn't have to return my kickboard and clock. Just left it all there for her to get herself.

I wanted to go to the dance so bad but couldn't think of anyone to go with so I watched Saturday night live in the lounge instead.

Gettin' Dogged

800 - 500 swim, 300 kick

1000 - 5 x 200's on 4:00 long stretchers

1500 - 60 x 25's fly on 1:00

3300 total

Today I swam at 3:00 because I was in the mood to do something physical. Sarah dogged me hard at 3:00. I asked her to the dance tonight but she said no because she was going with a bunch of friends. I guess I am not a friend. So I left and she told me to call her or come to swim while she was at work tomorrow.

Bull! It is over! I came home and ripped up her picture and all things that reminded me of her. I was extremely angry and started doing calisthenics to Nine Ince Nails but went swimming after 20 minutes of it.

I had planned on doing 100 x 25's fly but 1:00 is to much rest. Plus everyone was getting in my way so I felt content with 60 and left.

Shawn played racquetball with me since we were the only ones home this weekend. I was glad rather than stay at home and feel sad over Sarah's loss.

Ricks College Intramural Swim Meet

Ricks Intramural meet -

50 free - I wanted a :23 and got :23.66. I came in 3rd by a hair.

100 IM - I wanted a 1:10 and got 1:03.82. I came in 4th.

50 fly - :26. I got a :26.26 I took first in this event.

100 free - I wanted :49 and got :50.9. I came in first in this event.

200 free - I wanted a 1:55 and got a 1:55.61. I also came in first in this event.

There were 9 events and I swam 5. Taking first in three of those.

Bryan came in first overall as he swam every event. I came in 3rd overall which aint too bad seeing that I didn't even swim 4 events.

I am pleased with these times as they are all break my personal records.

Jaron, Shawn and Chris and Ryon and Tammi all came to support me. I am grateful for that. It means alot.

I also went to inservice today too because Zirker wanted me to join in on it. I saw him today to ask him if we could take off the swim suits to expose our speedos. He said it was up to Rydalch. Bryan did it anyways and none of the guards did anything about it, so I took mine off for the 100 and 200 free.

8 Mar 1994

Today we swam probably 400 yards. We sprinted and did turns and talked about tomorrow and then went to the meeting where we found out that it is not going to be tomorrow but the next day.

I went shopping earlier and bought a trout. I ate it tonight and also some rice. I got plenty of carbohydrates. I am so psyched for Thursday. I swam a :52 100 free today w/o blocks.

4 Mar 1994

500 - free warmup

200 - 4 x 50's free race each other with shirts

100 - 4 x 25's race w/ shirts

flip turns

100 - free sprint (:53)

100 - ez

1000 total

We talked about shaving and I went home and shaved. I am now bald as heck. I like it though. I am stoked for getting a :50 100 free. I want it so bad, I am going crazy.

3 Mar 1994 - Tapering

500 warmup

50's fast and starts etc.

Bryan and I are tapering for next week.

I did a :54 100 free.

2 Mar 1994

500 - warmup

1000 - 5 x 100's IM on 1:50, 5 x 100's free on 1:45 (all under 1:04)

500 - 5 x 100's kick on 2:30

500 - 20 x Australian 25's fast on 1:00

100 - sprint (beat Monday's 100 time)

200 - ez

2800 total

28 Feb 1994

300 - warmup

50 - free race vs. Bryan (I got :27 he got :25)

600 - 12 x 50's 4 on :50, :45, :40

50 - ez

300 - 6 x 50's on :45

600 - 6 x 100's on 1:25

300 - 6 x 50's on :35

300 - 3 x 100's first 2 on 1:10, :15

200 - 2 x 100's on 1:10

100 - sprint (:57)

100 - 8 x 25's sprint on :45 under :15

100 - ez

3000 total

Today Bryan and I sprinted. We raced and he beat me in the first 50 at the beginning of the workout. I beat him the rest of the the workout though. It was awesome. Sarah came and swam. I tried to involve her, but she was doing distance sets and she didn't want to keep up with us. I understood and felt bad because I wanted to be with her. We talked while Bryan did his last 100. We are doing some ballroom practice tomorrow night. We are also taking biking together.

She asked me to call her tonight. I love it when she leads me on. I just hope that it is sincere. I haven't told her to her face that I love her, nor have I kissed her. But I constantly think of my future with her and desire to marry her.

25 Jan 1994

500 - 5 x 100's super ez warmup (stretch and rotate breathing)

500 - 10 x 50's choice sprint on 1:30

50 - ez

400 - 4 x 100's sprint free on 2:00

500 - 20 x Australian 25's on 1:30

3200 total

Getting humbled in waterpolo

Today at 6:00 we begin practising and at 7:00 we begin playing the waterpolo championship. We have about 10 players now and will have plenty of substitutes.

I got about 10 CDs in the mail today. and am listening to them now. I'll finish this tonight and tell you how it went. cya

I got back from the waterpolo game and looks like the Lord saw fit to humble me. We got beat 15-2. I prayed that we would have fun, and I did. So I consider that prayer answered. I never prayed to win, and we didn't. I just wanted to have fun and that everyone else on the team would as well. That our team would not judge each other for mistakes but support each other and help each other. I grew closer to Bryan. He is so excited for swimming meet. So am I. He said all he wanted was to take 1st in 50 free. I hope he does. I no longer have enmity towards him as a competitor. We are working out together. If he wins, I'll be just as happy. Probably happier. I sense his desire and the love I feel for him is great and hope he wins. I won't let him win though. I am going to push him as if I didn't know him. Plus he'll have an idea of how fast to swim and improve by swimming with me. The other guys at water polo were good at polo, but we'll see exactly how fast they are. Actually when they started the game both times one guy beat Bryan to the ball so there is a fast guy other than Bryan at Ricks. However, Bryan really isn't the best sprinter either. But it is good to see there is other competition other than Bryan at school. What ticks me off is - if there are good swimmers at Ricks College why don't they get off their butts and form a swim team or club or something. I am going to organize one after the meet for next year.

Sarah got an A on the test. The Lord also answered my prayer in that regard. I am happy for her. She said it was hard and that she thought she got an F. But when she got the results she about passed out. The Lord loves me and I am happy. I am grateful at this moment.

I asked Sarah also if she would be in the ballroom competition with me since Sarah Madsen couldn't make it. She agreed and we have 3 weeks to learn it and compete on March 19th.

She asked me to go to the dance Friday, but I don't want to if she is going to play the field in front of me. If I go I want her, and no one else.

23 Feb 1994

800 - 250 swim, 300 kick, 250 swim

500 - 10 x 50's choice on 2:00 sprint!

1300 total

Kelly didn't come! It was getting crowded and I did a :26 on the last 50. I was so mad that I quit early. I had a 3200 yard workout planned. But I have class tonight. Tomorrow water polo starts. I need to start doing more distance in my workouts rather than this 1000 - 2000 stuff. I am sick of it! I need a loyal partner!!!!!!!!

I signed up for intramural swimming today. I was the first one on the list.

22 Feb 1994

300 - 100 of each stroke

300 - 100 kick of each stroke

600 - 12 x 50's choice 4 on 1:10, 4 on 1:00, 4 on :50

50 - ez

400 - 4 x 100's fast on 3:00

400 - 8 x 50's kick on 1:20

50 - sprint of your choice (under 30 for free or fly, under 40 for breast)

2100 total

Swam with Sarah and talked. She is getting friendlier and less swaty. I was a fly once, but then I grew, you know. She is actually going out of her way tomorrow to go dancing with me after her study group at 9:00. Also she called me tonight. I love life pretty good when this happens. But I hate the games. If this is a game, I want to know! Do you want to be on my team or not!

Anyhow I have the "Spittin Blood" water polo team ready for Thursday. I have enough people to play and we are going to kick butt!

My new roommate Bart is from Rigby and just got back from his mission in Japan. He is a big time tap dancer and is probably the best dancer at Ricks. He was on the team before his miss. His CD player is awesome but it scratches the crap out of my CD's. Maybe I am not using it right, so I'll stick with my own equipment, einta?

Punching a hole in the wall!

300 - 100 of fly, breast, and free

300 - 100 kick of the above strokes

1000 - 2 x 500's descend time w/ negative split

200 - ez

400 - 4 x 100's descend time last one under (1:00)

200 - warmdown

2400 total

Sarah totally dogged me yesterday (there must be something about that name "Sarah". They all seem to like to play games with my head.) cause she said she would come with me to church but instead she went running with her roommate Jill. Her ward was cancelled because of the holiday so she was supposed to come to my ward anyways. I saw her running and was enraged.

I was supposed to call her as soon as I got home, but I put it off for 4 hours. I wan't to be sure it was her running, so I called and found it was her. I got off the phone and went nuts. I punched a hole in the wall. I was so mad that I had to punch a hole. Why couldn't I have broken my arm? It would have felt alot better. Now I have to fix the hole, or pay for it. Crap!

My new roommate came and I was glad that I was calm by then. He came just as I was in the lounge having Elder's Quorum Prayer. When I got back, the peace of that prayer took main part of my anger away. We talked. He left to go home and I lifted for a bit, but I was so sore from Saturday's lifting with Sarah.

We are playing raquetball today at 5 and swimming, so it looks like I am getting 2 workouts today. I also have a few people on my Water Polo team.

19 Feb 1994

600 - 200 free, kick, pull

225 - 9 x 25's sprint fly, breast, free

200 - 4 x 50's over unders

175 - warmdown

200 - kick

1400 total

Just before this we ran stairs for 10 minutes until they made us stop for Basketball practice. Then we went and lifted for an hour and my arms were fatigued. We did 4 sets of pull ups. It was so fun to lift again with a girl and get her to perform by uplifting her up.

Then we swam this workout. After this she taught me how to dive off the high dive. This was the first time I ever dived off the high dive. I contribute that achievement to Sarah because I had no desire until she wanted me to. Then I did it, without hesitation. Only little girls are afraid of heights. I would have dived off something twice that high up for her.

She said her church was cancelled tomorrow so I committed her to join me for Sacrament Meeting. Then she is coming here to watch Man from Snowy River with me.

She has to work tonight so she can't go with me to the basketball game tonight. But I can see that I am not shot down. Just slowed down. I don't mind, as long as she don't leave me. I got the pictures back today from the Valentine's dance. She is so pretty. That brings back feelings that night and I wish to be with her more. But I'll be content with as much as she'll give me for now. I am going to write home since I haven't done so in such a long time.

18 Feb 1994

500 - reverse IM warmup

200 - 4 x 50's fast on 1:00

100 - 100 sprint under 1:00 (:57)

800 total

I went skiing today and my neck was really sore! I came mainly because Sarah was working and I wanted to ask her to the dance after she got off at 10:30. She didn't want to go so I took it as a shooting and went home to bed.

16 Feb 1994 - turning the swim log into a journal!

400 - 400 reverse IM

600 - 12 x 50's free 4 on 1:00, 4 on :50, 4 on :45

500 - 5 x 100's sprint under 1:00 on 3:00

100 - ez

1600 total

We had a short workout because there is a class at 6:30. We had another swimmer join us. Seth from Salt Lake (he went to Olympus). Also Kelly wants to join us. She is a swimmer from California. She wants to get a water polo team going for next week. She said she'll come in and swim with us at 5:00.

Bryan got his nipple pierced and he had tape over it so it doesn't move around on his titty and fall off. That has got to be the most stupid thing anyone could do. I mean an earring is pooftery enough. But a nipple? Might as well get a sex change along with it man.

Felt good cause I was killing Bryan and Seth in the 100s and averaging 1:00 on the 100s.

Sarah called last night and we talked for a good 30 minutes I guess. From the way she talks, she isn't pushing me away, just asking for a bit of time to get over jack sprat on the mission. We are still going out tomorrow. We are also going to the BB game on Saturday and then country dancing next Wednesday. I'll teach her ball room Saturday here. I still have this intense feeling for her, which is good. I love you Sarah Bowman.

Today in Pearl of Great Price Brother Wightman said how well the papers were done this time. He said he learned much from some of them and took mine out and showed it to the class (about 120) and said some of the points I expanded on the report. He even quoted something I said later on in his discussion. I felt rather honoured, not of man, because no one knows who "Gordy" is with which he was referring. I knew as I got my paper with a "Gordy, you done good! -- 25" on it. Here it is:

Brother Wightman Moses Chapter 6 Gordon Gridley

4 February, 1994

The first few verses in this chapter lead me into pondering the attitudes of Father and Son relationships. For instance in the earlier chapter, Lamech killed his Grandpa because of a secret he revealed. In Chapter six, Adam and Eve are rejoicing over another newborn with which they have another chance to have righteous seed.

Seth did have a positive attitude and honoured his Father and hearkened unto his teachings. He was blessed with a faithful testimony of God. He had a son and Seth taught him. Now a strong seed in the Lord is forming. They had "family prayers" as they "call[ed] upon the name of the Lord, and the Lord blessed them."

Reading and writing was very important as it was a means to record genealogy and words given from the Lord. It was a pure language with which meaning of words had no question as does our confused world of language does today with the many different interpretations.

Now in verse nine, I thought of its meaning. Adam was a literal Son of God. He was physically and spiritual born of God. I believe that just by being a Son of God does not make one a God through simple heredity. Adam was a Son of God, but not a God. He had to do certain things to chose to become a God. By taking of the fruit, it did two things.

One, by taking of the fruit, he lost his heredity of immortalship. But that could never change the fact that Adam is a Son of God.

Two, by taking of the fruit, he could now take those steps to become a God, through obedience and experience.

Through the righteous seed of Seth, Enoch was born. Enoch was in his own eyes, "just a lad", and hated of the people, and retarded in speech. With this humility it was at first difficult for him to be told of the Lord that he was chosen.

The Lord told this servant he wasn't to be relying on his own strength, but literally an instrument in the Lord's hands.

He was told to put clay in his eyes and then wash them. Enoch was now seeing, and this wonderful gift was given to prophesy of things to come.

Enoch knew that the fear of God was much more than the fear of man and so he taught the truth without worry of offending man. So there were many who were marvelling at this "madman" who came to testify against them. The people feared harming Enoch for he was obviously so full of truth.

One point of the teaching that I took notice of is that Enoch does not separate them from him in that they are all related to Adam and they all know him and where he came from. He simply reminds them. "The Lord which spake with me, the same is the God of heaven, and he is my God, and your God, and ye are my brethren, and why counsel ye yourselves, and deny the God of Heaven?"

He relates the conversation of the Lord teaching Adam about how to make solid steps in his path to Godliness. Adam was forgiven of his transgression of taking of the fruit, and thus it was important for all men to be baptized and take responsibility for their own sins. He is commanded to teach his children to have faith in God and repent of their own personal sins and then be baptized and receive the Holy Ghost. The to be faithful for the rest of their lives (I imagine being faithful for 900 years was quite a test).

Symbolism of baptism is taught. Just as one dies and returns to the dust, baptism represents the immersion or death of the sin conceived hearts. The coming out of the water represents the resurrection or the being born again of the water and the spirit. Water being the symbol and the spirit being the actual change.

Adam was the only person in scripture that I know of to be physically baptized by the Spirit in where he was carried away into the water and baptized by the Lord and then receiving great spiritual strength. Eve's baptism is not recorded but I imagine that she was a witness of this even and probably a participant.

Adam received the priesthood and is pronounced again, "Behold, thou are one in me, a son of God". The next part then pertains to everyone else and helps me understand that I am not really much different, "and thus may all become my sons."

15 Feb 1994 - no swimming - more girl drama!

Today I went to the temple with the ward. When we got there we sang a song and had a prayer and the second counselor told me I was baptizing all the girls. What! I was shocked. I thought you had to be a high priest or something to do that.

I was briefed on what to say and was given the clothes and thrown in the font. It was a rush. I felt such a responsibility doing that work. I found that as I said that prayer over and over that it was most important that I thought about what I was saying and not just saying it and putting the meaning in the back of my head. Especially the part, "Having been commissioned of Jesus Christ" and the end where I close "in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost." I didn't want to take their names in vain, so I said it as sacred as I could with as much thought as possible.

I did all but 2 of the girls and John (counselor in the Elder's Quorum) did the rest and the guys too since there were more girls than guys. I then changed and was a witness for the guys.

I felt the spirit so strongly. I prayed most of the way home that I would more responsibly take the Lord's name upon myself as I have covenanted many times in my life at partaking the sacrament and also in other covenants.

Upon returning home I found a yellow rose on my bed. I hoped it was Sarah upon first glance. I opened the envelope included. It read,

February 15, 1994

Dear Gordon,

I read your letter when I got home last night. It was a bit overwhelming for me. I have a fun time when I'm with you. Your sweet, thoughtful, and easy to talk to. There is something I want to tell you. I dated someone last semester, he left on a mission. We were quite serious. It's hard to forget about him. I'm not ready to start a relationship with anyone. Right now I need time to be alone. I hope this doesn't effect our friendship because I still want to do things with you. I just needed to be honest with you. I hope you understand my situation and want to continue building our friendship.

Love,

Sarah Bowman P.S. Smile

I will give you my interpretation of this:

She is confused at this time. Just like I was that night when I was thinking of Charmayne and wondering if I really should wait. I think she has major confusion and wants time to think about it. I can totally empathize with her. It isn't a fun situation to take one and throw another away just because of the one. Especially when you care about the other. I do have a positive about this though. Most of the time, when confronting girls that were nice, it never confused me. It only confused me at a certain point of time. It wasn't a person that confused me, but time and the thoughts of being alone for 1 and a half years.

She is confused either :

Because she doesn't want to be alone and when someone comes, she wants to continue with it, but hesitates because of the natural hanging on to the lost one.

Because of time, it was a while since she last saw him and the love is dwindling. I must thoroughly admit, the love dwindles after time. Time truly is an enemy to man. I just had been thinking about this long truth I have known for a while. It is an enemy to the one who has time to deal with. For me, time is my friend, for he will draw that intensity from Sarah's heart and because of the time I spend with her, it will replace those lost feelings with one's for me. But I am being rather cynical about these sacred feelings so I will end with this.

14 Feb 1994 - Valentines Day - professing my love for Sarah Bowman

I swam about 3,000 yards but didn't make a workout. One of the guards made it and I can't remember it. I swam with Sarah for 2,000 yards of it. I bought her a rose and gave it to her. I also got a Gorilla with a love note in it. It said the following:

February 14, 1994

Dearest Sarah,

It isn't just valentine's day that causes me to feel extra romantic or anything. I have felt like this ever since the dance last Saturday and getting to know you well. I had a wonderful time with you. You fill my heart with joy with the time spent with you. I don't want to seem pushy or overly forward, but I want to spend as much time with you as possible, cause I like the way I feel when I am with you.

I am not the smoothest and graceful guy like a cute little puppy dog. On the contrary I am as simple and ponderous as this here Gorilla. Full of love for a friend.

I hope you would come to me if you have a need for anything. I will be here for you, Sarah. I wish that when someone asks you, "Who is your best friend?", that one day you will be able to answer "Gordon Gridley".

I love you with all of my heart Sarah Bowman!

Happy Valentine's Day.

Gords

I put this letter in the Gorilla's hands and put it on her bed. So she got it when she got home after the workout. We went to the sisters for family home evening and played uno. The we talked about skiing and stuff for a while. Now I am home and want to play racquetball with Sarah tomorrow night. She is on the other line and will call back soon.

12 Feb 1994 - Valentines Dance

In a few hours I will be on a formal with Sarah Bowman. I decided to make the spare time go quicker if I don't think about it and go swim (even though I hate swimming on Saturdays).

200 100 swim, kick

600 12 x 50's alternate arm fly on 1:00

250 10 x 25's fly under :14 on :45

200 4 x 50's fly sprint on 2:00

400 8 x 50's fly kick on 1:30

250 10 x 25's fly first 25 breath 4 times. 5th 25 no breath, then start over. on 1:00

200 2 x 100's free under 1:05 on all on 3:00

2100 total

I swam this workout and felt good about it. Came home and cleaned the apartment. Then got ready in 30 minutes (which is pretty good to not be ready and waiting for 2 hours like I normally do when I look forward to something like this.

I picked her up with Murray's car and we went to the loft. Murray and Tammi were there and the waiting list was 40-50 minutes so we just went to Idaho Falls and ate at Garcia's. I ate a chicken fajita. Sarah had a Burro I think.

Anyhow we went to the dance and I held her hand most of the time. I thoroughly enjoyed myself and she did too as she took my hand many times which meant it wasn't just me. We did ballroom and a little two stepping country. I had so much fun and she did too as I remember her smile and eyes. She is so beautiful. I'd say the prettiest girl I have ever dated.

She loved the time there cause of her laughs. I loved it too. We came back to the apartment and watched a movie at which we both fell asleep so I walked her home at 2:30 and we were both so very tired and my breath stunk so I just hugged her goodnight, but the thing is..

I came home and said my prayers and thanked the Lord for her, and went to bed. I could not sleep for hours (which was rather odd since I was sound asleep along side her just minutes before) and my mind kept pondering the dance and her pleasant smile and happy laugh and the coolness of her little hands, I loved being with her. I am thrilled when she is happy.

My heart tripled in size in my chest. I had realized I was in trouble. I am in Love. I tried debating that fact in my mind knowing I had only really spent about 10 hours with her before and how can one be in love in such a short time. But I argued the other side as I reviewed her actions and her personality and remembering details of her life. I know Sarah's base. I know what she is like and how she reacts in certain situations. We have much in common and I liked this thinking, so I kept on swimming those thoughts of devotion for her in my mind. I was getting dizzy with the love I had for her. There is much more to know about her with which I am eager to find out, but I know enough about her to want to spend more time with her. Eventually after a few hours of tossing and turning finally slept.

Waking, I was relieved to know that those feelings were still there and it wasn't just a dream. Church was good and had some excellent speakers. Sacrament was heartfelt as well.

I had waited all day for Sarah's coming. She said she was bringing some cookies over. The plan is to take a walk with her and tell her what I was going through. I really need to spend some time with her right now so my heart doesn't crash because it is addicted to her presence. It would take a while to recover from a fall such as this if she decided not to accept me into her life.

She came with the cookies. However she brought a friend and also had a church meeting. So much for that walk. I wanted to tell her today, but I may have to tomorrow. (Monday)

11 Feb 1994

50 fly

50 fly, free

250 10 x 25's fly on 1:00 beat :15

250 5 x 50's fly free on 2:00

600 total

I had a very short workout today because I had a date with Sarah Bowman. I went shopping and bought a bunch of fruit and chips and we ate together and talked. I got to know quite a bit about her. More than I do Sarah Madsen, however I haven't spent alot of time with this Sarah so it is still a little stand offish.

But not after tonight. I really like her. We have a bit in common and I love that. She also looks for ways to be in common with me, I can sense. So she is interested in me and I am definately in her. So tomorrow at the dance, I am going to start from the beginning to hold her hand. If she accepts it willingly without hesitation I will even kiss her goodnight at the end

10 Feb 1994

600 200 swim, kick, pull

1600 8 x 200's descend on 4:00

500 10 x 50's fly concentrating on breathing less on 2:00

300 6 x 50's fly kick on 1:30

100 fly getting under 1:15

100 ez

3100 total

Today Bryan came. He is from Colorado. 40 minutes south of Denver and 1 hour north of Colorado Springs.

We both were hating it on the 200's but finished it gracefully. He is more of a freestyler than a flyer. So he adjusted his fly to free while I alternated fly and free on the 10 x 50's. At the end he did a 1:05 free and I did a 1:13 100 fly. I always die on the last 25. My 75 time was a :50. But the last 25 was dragging my arms and I was really having a tough time. I almost gave up.

He had really good times in High school. He had a 49 second 100 free once. But now he can't get a :55 probably. Not to judge him. It just goes to show how staying in shape helps in times. If he came every day to swim with me I bet he could get his 100 back down, but he only comes in every other day or so.

I guess I am a bit hypocritical in saying that cause tomorrow I am only going to swim around 1000 with Sarah (Bowman of course) after a date. But that will be the first time that I miss a workout in a long time.

Sarah Madsen dumped me for today's ballroom dance. She decided to sleep instead (so says Brenda). Her other class was canceled so she decided to sleep all day. I danced with Brenda until her partner came who was late 20 minutes. He hates the class and so does Sarah Brenda says. I fell like telling Sarah and Brenda's partner to just drop the class so Brenda and I can do it.

I am looking forward to tomorrow to get to know Sarah better. I am go ing skiing with her next Thursday too.

9 Feb 1994 - Sarah Madsen is lame - Sarah Bowman rocks

400 - 200 swim, kick

600 - 8 x 75's EZ free on 1:30

600 - 12 x 50's 25 free on 1:00 fly on 2:00

100 - ez

500 - 20 x 25's fly on 1:00

100 - fly (don't give up si'i!)

200 - ez

2500 total

Tonight I went with Jadie to the Country dance thing. I had to say the opening prayer. I had alot of fun! I was really surprised at how much I enjoyed myself. From now on, I will go with anyone as long as their fun. She was pretty fun.

Called Sarah Madsen and she couldn't trade nights to Friday so I canceled. But she canceled me for Tomorrow's ballroom class. She wants to sleep all day. I will be going with a better Sarah. We are going to do something Friday to get to know each other and then go to the Valentines dance on Saturday.

8 Feb 1994 - Jadie Dalton's workout

400 swim, kick

1200 8 x 150's pull on 2:15

300 6 x 50's alternate arms fly on 1:20

100 ez

600 12 x 50's 50 fast free on 1:00, 50 fly on 2:00

400 4 x 100's kick on 2:15

200 ez

3200 total

I did this workout and all of a sudden I see Jadie swim for the second day.

She got out about half way through my workout. When I look up the side for my workout, this is next to it -

OPTIONAL WORKOUT PROGRAM FOR...

GORDON R. GRIDLEY

WEDNESDAY FEBRUARY 9, 1994

WARM UP: -Meet at Ricks College Pool @ 6:30 p.m.

-Walk to M.C. West Ballroom for country dance

instruction.

- 30 Minutes (instructional)

WORKOUT: - Country Swing

- Two Steppin'

- Line Dancing

(In whatever order for at least 2 hours)

COOL DOWN: - Brisk walk to Dorm 3 for intense eating of

refreshments.

Note: If you choose to follow this customized "Optional Workout Program please contact (Trainer) Jadie Dalton at 356-1684.

p.s.- only if you want to.

I was hoping something like this wouldn't happen. I called her to tell her of my 8:00 class and that I could only do it until then.

She then brought up that I asked Sarah to the Formal. She asked how she answered. I didn't want to go into great detail for I felt conflict as it was so I just said that she threw some of the colored rings in the pool.

She said, "how cute, you guys will have fun." I didn't really want to talk about it and felt real awkward. I said, "well, I'll just see you tomorrow." Then there was silence on the phone for a good 5 seconds. I was sure that she was interpreting the word, "just" as something rude. I didn't want to push her away, but I was feeling really weird talking about it, when I know that she likes me and we are talking about someone I like. I don't want to break hearts, cause I know what it is like, but like I said yesterday, I don't want to feel obliged to take her on.

I am sure she was probably hurt by the way that silence hung. I said, "Thanks for the workout" but should have said more because it was really well typed. She is a total perfectionist.

I also was ticked at Sarah (Madsen) because she cancelled this Thursday's dancing class. So I called later and put her on Friday night's formal and put the cool Sarah (Bowman) on Saturday. I called the Loft to get reservations and don't need them.

So I got the tickets and am ready to party.

Went to Chris Norton's basketball game and they played the number 1 ranked team. It was the best game I have ever witnessed. They were down by 20 and came back and won by 4 points in overtime. I lost my voice from screaming so loud. My hands burnt from the clapping. I have never gotten so involved in a ball game. I felt really proud of those guys.

7 Feb 1994 - Sarah Bowman and Jadie Dalton - Valentines Dance poem

400 200 swim, kick

400 4 x 100's free getting under 1:00 on 3:00

8 x 75's control on 1:30

1200 8 x 50's build on 1:00

8 x 25's sprint on :30

400 4 x 100's kick on 2:30

100 ez

400 4 x 100's free getting under 1:05 on 3:00

200 warmdown

3100 total

This is Monday. Last Friday I asked Sarah Bowman and another lifeguard girl out on a date (for a double date with Shawn). We had 4 couples. We all went roller skating, and came home for a dinner that we all guys cooked up. It was spaghetti and Salad. All over candle light. Watched Alladin and went to the dance for the last 30 minutes.

Jadie is one of the guards. She is quiet and polite. Not seemingly self confident. I didn't want to leave her out but she was the last one to get picked to dance by all the guys so I was almost "stuck" with her. Not to be rude.

Sarah was the one I wanted, but Shawn snagged her. I don't blame him. I asked her to the Valentine's dance yesterday. Her is the way I asked her.

to Sarah -

WILT the sky always stay so blue?

THOU knowest!

GO and tell the world what's true.

WITH all the rumours of chicken little -

ME, what's what is not cruel.

TO be wild with riddles -

THE scarcity of duals.

VALENTINE'S, with arrows in their heads - CUPID!

DANCE? Poems that form something quite stupid.

If yes, then the water will tell with the colourful

rings lined up on the bottom of the sea.

If no, then the reasons must be.

One lonely brick will lay there saying so.

So I came into swim at 5:00 as normal and there she was. I smiled and she smiled but there was nothing at the bottom of the pool. I was wondering if she got the letter. I put it under the door of her apartment.

When I was doing the 100's under 1:00 all of a sudden I see rings entering the water all around me with great force. Many and many of them. I was feeling awesome. I was happy at the rate of the entrance of the rings showing that she put forth care.

You see, alot of girls around here put off an attitude of laziness in socialism. They don't care and are real lethargic.

But Sarah with her pretty smile makes a world of difference. I asked her if Friday was good and went on with my workout. I'll call her Thursday and arrange the whole things with her.

I fear Jadie may be liking me in a sincere way. She came and swam in my lane for the first time. I hope I never have to break her heart. I know what it is like, but don't want to go for it, for her heart's sake.

I swam well today and almost gave up, but finished it. Changed the original order but you have what I did in order.

5 Feb 1994

200 - Warmup IM

800 - 4 x 200's IM on 3:15

600 - 8 x 75's kick on 1:45

1000 - 8 x 125's pull on 1:45

1375 - 9 x 75's on 1:10, 50's on :50, 25's on :40

350 - 7 x 50's ez on :55

250 - 25 sprints w/ dive

100 - ez

4675 total

4 Feb 1994

600 - 200 kick, free, pull

2500 - 100 x 25's fly on 1:00

100 - ez

3200 total

Clay Jensen came and the last 50 of my fly workout raced me. I can do 25 fly in 12 seconds, however, my second 25 totally sucks. I was lucky to get a :30 50 fly. I am just hoping that I sucked so bad because it was after I had just done 2450 yards fly. If I did it after just doing about 100 to warm up I would get it down.

The lifeguards two girls, asked me what my 100 fly time is. I said honestly, "I don't know, I have never done 100 fly" I was about to ask Katie out. She is blonde and tall and a little chunky. The only reason I am attracted to her is because she is so obvious in her attraction to me. She smiles every second she can and her eyes are focused on mine. That is the look I wish Sarah would give me.

This was a good workout despite my disappointment in the 50 fly.

3 Feb 1994

800 - 400 swim, 200 kick, 200 pull

400 - 4 x 100's free on 3:00

500 - swim fast and get time

400 - 8 x 50's breast on 2:00

200 - 4 x 50's IM 25 fly, back, breast free

2300 total

That other guy that comes in once in a while from Colorado that is fast. His name is Bryan. I asked him if he wanted to swim together and combine workouts. He said yes. So from now on I will be swimming with him every day at 5:00 pm. I no longer care about being "the fastest" as long as I am pushed and I can push him so that both of us can improve by combining our workouts.

2 Feb 1994

400 - 200 swim, kick

200 - 8 x 25's fly on :30

500 - 10 x 50's free sprint getting under :28, on 1:00

1100 total

Again, feel like poo and very angry because my motivation is made of sugar and mud. I am speaking with John Zirker tomorrow to get a swim team going.

29 Jan 1994

600 - 200 free, kick, pull

300 - 6 x 50's alternate free, fly on 1:15

50 - ez

950 total

Felt like absolute dookee.

28 Jan 1994

400 - 200 ez, 200 kick

2500 - 100 x 25's fly on 1:30

100 - fly kick

3000 total

I met that one regular guy again. He is from Colorado and swam 4A in High school. He swam free sprints. He asked if I swam 100 fly in school. He stated that he wanted to take first in Intramurals, "hopefully". Well, frankly it depends on if he is racing me in my events or not. He no longer scares me. I am enraged, he is not.

27 Jan 1994

200 - 200 IM Warmup

400 - 2 x 200 IMs on 3:15

600 - 8 x 75's kick on 1:45

250 - 2 x 125's pull on 1:45

1450 total

Got tired, and quit early. Very unmotivated. Lucky to have swam at all really.

26 Jan 1994 - girl drama with Sarah Madsen

600 - 200 Warmup, kick, pull

250 - 10 x 25's fly. Descending breathing last 25 one breath only. On 1:00

200 - IM

50 - ez

450 - 6 x 75's kick on 2:00

600 - 12 x 50's strengthen left arm 25, right 25 on 1:30

300 - 6 x 50's fly on 1:30

200 - ez

250 - 10 over unders on 2:00

100 - sprint free (:57)

50 - ez

3000 total

Today no one was in the pool except me, so I went pretty well. I tried to keep the rage, but was unable to keep it to the extreme like I was last night.

Last night I went to a stake dance. Sarah was there. I danced with her and after that she took off without really saying goodbye, so I followed her thinking she was going to get a drink and wanted me to follow. She went to talk to some girlfriends and I stood back a few feet to not step in her circle unless she wanted. Obviously she didn't because she saw me and took off again. I sat down for a few minutes, and the brain was just a moving trying to figure out what just happened.

I went home and happened to go into Chris' room and noticed a dance picture with 3 couples forming a pyramid. Guess who was on the top with the prettiest smile - you got it, Sarah. I was so filled with anger I sucked on about 5 lollipops and did calisthenics in my room for an hour and a half and listened to Nine Inch Nails and dude I haven't done this in a while ....

But I cut myself. I was so insane like I was before my mission that I cut myself to enjoy the pain. For I would rather feel physical pain than emotional pain. So I bled on my right biceps for a while and it burned. I must admit it did feel good compared to the pain I was feeling in my heart just moments before.

I went to bed around 11:30 and tried to conjure up that anger in the morning so I could keep that energy it gave me. Plus the feeling of physical strength I felt that night. But it hasn't stayed like I wanted. It really is too bad that emotion comes and goes like this. That is my biggest problem with the mind, is that we are so spontaneous with our feelings. They don't last as long as we wish.

I hope Sarah says "No" to going to the formal with me. But I don't think she will have the nerve. If I could go back in time I wouldn't have asked her. But who knows she might change and things might actually work out - but I highly doubt it.

She has already had two strikes against her - one more and she is history dude.

25 Jan 1994

600 - 300 warmup, 300 kick

500 - 10 x 50's (25 fly sprint, 25 fly ez) on 1:30

400 - 4 x 100's free under 1:00 on 3:00

100 - ez

200 - 8 x 25's fly sprint under :15 on 1:00

400 - 4 x 100's free under 1:05 on 3:00

50 - fly under :30

50 - ez

200 - 100 free kick, 100 fly kick

400 - 4 x 100's free under 1:10 on 2:00

100 - ez

3000 total

I finished this workout and all goals were met. I bought some lollipops to give me a sugar rush on the way to the pool. Today I asked Sarah to the Valentine's formal and so that gave me a rush.

24 Jan 1994

400 - 200 swim, 200 kick

500 - speed play

200 - free sprint (goal 2:05, got 1st 100 -:55, total 2:03)

200 - ez

100 - free sprint (goal under :57, got :55)

100 - ez

800 - 10 x 75's (25 fly kick, 25 fly, 25 free) on 2:00

100 - ez

50 - fly sprint (goal under :29, got :30)

50 - fly sprint (goal :30, got :30)

2300 total

I felt really good about that 200. I looked up at the 100 split and saw that I had a :55 100. I wanted to get it under 2:00 at that point, but ended up with a 2:03. I did a good job of psyching up for it. Also the 100 free went well. That one fast guy from last week came, except he brought a friend who slowed him down, and he swam a 100 fly in 1:13. I want to get the 100 fly under 1:00 ath the Ricks meet. And I want to get my 100 free below :50! It is going to take alot of work to get those goals but they are reachable if I keep working out and getting my mind full of rage during sprints. It really helps. I wrote a poem about rage in my list of poems. It is about getting psyched before swimming.

22 Jan 1994

400 - 400 Warm up

600 - 8 x 75's fast on 1:10 (first 25 fly)

200 - 4 x 50's on 1:00

200 - kick

1000 - 8 x 125's pull on 1:45

450 - 6 x 75's IM on 1:30

200 - ez

50 - fly sprint (get under :30)

3100 total

21 Jan 1994 - No chicks = rage

800 - 400 swim, 200 kick, 200 pull

500 - 10 x 50's kick free, fly on 2:00 (beat :55)

250 - 10 x 25's fly breath every 3 strokes on 1:00

100 - ez

50 - fly sprint (got :30)

400 - 4 x 100's free on 3:00, get under 1:00 (:59,1:00,:03,:03)

200 - IM ez

400 - 4 x 100's free on 3:00 get under 1:05 (:02,:03,:05,:03)

200 - free ez

400 - 4 x 100's free on 2:00 get under 1:10 (all under 1:10)

50 - ez

100 - under 1:00 free 100 (1:02)

3450 total

I felt good about this workout. Especially the :30 50 fly. I was impressed that I was able to get those first 4 x 100's close to the goal. The rest of the 100's I beat the goal I set.

The reason I was stoked was because there is a girl's choice dance tonight, and no girl asked me. Not that I am acquainted with too many girls. Two possibilities and neither took the opportunity. I remember the way it was my first semester. I thought this semester would be better. I still am in a girl famine. I was quite angry contemplating this fact so it gave me the rage I needed to finish this workout and to get the times I needed.

19 Jan 1994

600 - 200 swim, kick, pull

750 - 10 x 75's fly (25 reg, 25 rt, lt ez, 25 reg.) on 2:00

250 - 10 x 25's free good push off and kick on 1:00

500 - 10 x 50's descending stroking on 1:00

50 - sprint fly (got below :31)

300 - ez kicking

2450 total

This workout was one of the easiest workouts I've done since coming home. No pressure, just did it. Except I had planned on doing a few more set but it got crowded and I was ready to say forget it. I just wanted to get a good time in the 50 fly. I was pleased to get a :31.

17 Jan 1994

800 - 400 swim, 400 kick

600 - 8 x 75's fast on 1:10

1000 - 5 x 200 reverse IM's on 4:00

500 - 10 x 50 reverse IM's on 1:50

50 - ez

100 - sprint (get under 1:00)

400 - warmdown

3450 total

I cramped up pretty bad today. I wasn't too upset because I went skiing all day and I did this workout just hours after I was done. I am bruised on my butt from falling, but I was improving drastically today. I feel like I can say "I can ski" if someone were to ask me.

About halfway through the workout, some guy came in and swam 10 x 100's on 2:00 and he was nailing the first one on 1:03 and the last one on 1:08. I was impressed. He tried racing me, but I let him go because I was doing IM's and there was no way I could keep up. He was talking to another swimmer there and asked him if he was going into the Intramural swim meet for Ricks. I see this guy as my main competitor. However, we will see how many times he comes to workout. I am prepared to beat him, no matter how fast he swims in workouts and how long he can keep his endurance. I am stoked to beat him. I have already put down a few pointers before a race.

1. Visualize the race

2. Pray

3. stretch (so you don't cramp up)

4. Eat a good breakfast with lots of carbohydrates

5. Sleep the night before well.

6. Drink OJ 15-30 minutes before the race

7. Get ticked off. Get psyched.

I was even thinking about shaving my head, but please! This is only fetchin' Ricks College. I can handle it without even shaving my arms or legs. I'll let the mind overtake the weakness of my body.

15 Jan 1994

600 - 200 free, 200 kick, 100 breast, 100 back

600 - 12 x 50's free (descending stroking) on 1:15

800 - 8 x 100's free (concentrate on turns, make sure to get a good kick off the wall and not breath until about 1/2 way) on 2:00

900 - 12 x 75's (25 fly, back, breast. 25 back, breast, free. 25 breast, free, fly) on 1:40

400 - kick (fly)

200 - ez

3500 total

14 Jan 1994

400 - Warmup 200 free, 200 kick

475 - S - 19 x 25's free on :50

25 - A - 1 x 25 (get :13)

450 - R - 18 x 25's free on :50

25 - A - 1 x 25 (beat last A)

200 - H - 8 x 25's free on :45

25 - ez

600 - 6 x 100's kick fly and free on 2:30

1000 - 10 x 100's on 2:00 (50 split and 100 beat 1:10)

3200 total

Today I met Sherri Stone. She is a lady in her mid thirties who is coaching a couple other kids that swim the same time I do. She is wanting to get a swim meet going for Ricks Intramurals. She knows many swimmers down in Salt Lake. She knows Robynn and Kristen, and Jennifer Waterbury. We talked for quite a while about the swim teams and people who swim in Salt Lake. It was fun. I got complimented today by a few people on my swimming.

Which is only because I was sprinting mainly today.

This here workout is dedicated to Sarah Madsen who taught me to ski last Thursday. She is so cool. I am asking her out for tonight. May more than just this workout be dedicated to her!

13 Jan 1994

150 - 3 x 50's choice

400 - 1 x 400's free (4:57)

600 - 12 x 50's 25 fly, 25 free, 25 back, 25 breast and so on.

100 - fast! ( :58)

500 - 10 x 50's specialty on 45 seconds

500 - 10 suicides (first 50 free - 5 breaths down, 4 back, and so on. Last 50 no breath)

200 - ez

2450 total

I was in a terrrible mood today and this workout was the highlight of my day. Very boring day today. If it weren't for this workout I would say that this day was the most worthless day I have had in my life. Both of my classes today were crap. Sarah didn't show up for Ballroom, and Computers was just a lab/work day. I am already ahead two chapters in that class so I could have done something else, but didn't know that role wasn't going to be taken. Getting a 58 on the 100 was what made my day worth something.

I concentrated on making my mind control my body. I made myself psychologically very angry making me swim faster.

11 Jan 1994

300 - 300 warmup

200 - IM

500 - 10 x 50's 25 fly, free, 25 fly, back, 25 fly, breast, 25 fly, fly,25 fly, free..each 25 :45

300 - 3 x 100's on 2:00 all under 1:10

100 - ez

1400 total

Today I swam at 12 noon instead of 5:00 because I am going skiing with Sarah Madsen. She is my ballroom partner. We are going to Kelly's Canyon. She has the honour of being the one to teach my first lesson in skiing.

Swimming today was boring and difficult.

10 Jan 1994

600 - 200 swim, kick, swim warmup

500 - 10 x 50's touch and pull on 1:00

300 - 6 x 50's kick

200 - 2 x 100's Sprint each 100 (:58, 1:02)

100 - back

200 - 8 x 25's Grounder and let out air for 2 sec then push off wall and swim 25 w/no breath

200 - 8 over unders

875 - 9 x 75's fly 25, back 25, breast 25

125 - ez

3100 total

I felt really good about that 100 under 1:00! I totally expected to get about a 1:05 and then I look up at the end and see a :58 second 100! I didn't even jump in, plus I had a Ricks suit on (which has about 5 pounds of drag on it) so I was thrilled with that set.

The last set I was very tempted to just quit. But I followed through and finished the workout. Very crowded pool and then when I finished there was hardly anyone there. I think the reason why I got under 1:00 in the 100 was because before I went under the water and pulled my hair, yelled and got myself mad and acted like a madman and dude does it work. I need to keep that in mind before races and I will swim faster

8 Jan 1994

500 - 200 free, 150 back, 100 breast, 50 fly warmup

1200 - 8 x 75's on 2:00 25 left, right, riffle (fingers skim water on the way back)

8 x 50's build up free on 1:15 (Start slow end fast)

8 x 25's sprint w/2 breaths on :45 sec

450 - 6 x 75's kick on 1:40

400 - 8 texas 50's on 1:15 (3 flipturns per 50)

HOW TOUGH ARE YOU 25's

250 - 10 x 25's on :25 rest for 30

200 - 8 x 25's on :20

100 - ez

3100 total

I felt better about this workout. I just got back from finishing lab in Accounting. I had a good Corn Flakes breakfast and jammed today's swimming. Plus pretty girls there, so that helped me swim faster.

7 Jan 1994

300 - 300 Warmup every 4th 25 fly

1000 - 1000 free (50,100,150,200,200,150,100,50) rest 30 after every set

500 - 5 x 100's kick on 2:15

400 - 8 x 50's 4 x 50's on 1:00, 4 x 50's on :50 sec

100 - EZ

2300 total

I simply had no energy today, so I did a simple workout today. I crawled home afterwards. I was so tired and I swam quite slow today. I didn't feel very good about today's workout. Maybe tomorrow.

6 Jan 1994

500 - Warmup 500 free

1500 - 5 x 100 free 1 breath every 3 strokes, 5 x 100 free 1 breath every 4 strokes, 5 x 100 free 1 breath every 5 strokes all on 1:40

800 - 8 x 100 IMs

100 - ez

2900 total

This was the first real workout here at Ricks where I didn't feel like a weak poofter afterwards. No lane lines, thus it was very wavy. I worked out just after I spent 3 hours in computer lab. My head was spinning terribly from concentration. After the workout I felt completely better.

Except now I want to go to bed.

5 Jan 1994

600 - 600 Warmup every 4th 25 fly

900 - 6 sets of 75,50,25 75 on 1:30, 50 on 1:15, 25 on :40

200 - ez

1700 total

I will be the TA for INT swimming for Sister Lilljenquist. I am looking forward to next wednesday.

3 Jan 1994

400 - 400 Warmup

200 - 200 Kick

800 - 8 x 100's free on 2:00

100 - EZ

1550 total

Today was my first day swimming here at Ricks. The pool was very hot and I died early. I planned out a 3400 w/o but cheated and left early.

I kept getting terrible cramps in the arch of my foot. I tried masseusing it but it didn't really help.

Ricks finally invested in a clock to work out to. Same old ugly and uncomfortable swim shorts though.