29 Jan 1994

600 - 200 free, kick, pull

300 - 6 x 50's alternate free, fly on 1:15

50 - ez

950 total

Felt like absolute dookee.

28 Jan 1994

400 - 200 ez, 200 kick

2500 - 100 x 25's fly on 1:30

100 - fly kick

3000 total

I met that one regular guy again. He is from Colorado and swam 4A in High school. He swam free sprints. He asked if I swam 100 fly in school. He stated that he wanted to take first in Intramurals, "hopefully". Well, frankly it depends on if he is racing me in my events or not. He no longer scares me. I am enraged, he is not.

27 Jan 1994

200 - 200 IM Warmup

400 - 2 x 200 IMs on 3:15

600 - 8 x 75's kick on 1:45

250 - 2 x 125's pull on 1:45

1450 total

Got tired, and quit early. Very unmotivated. Lucky to have swam at all really.

26 Jan 1994 - girl drama with Sarah Madsen

600 - 200 Warmup, kick, pull

250 - 10 x 25's fly. Descending breathing last 25 one breath only. On 1:00

200 - IM

50 - ez

450 - 6 x 75's kick on 2:00

600 - 12 x 50's strengthen left arm 25, right 25 on 1:30

300 - 6 x 50's fly on 1:30

200 - ez

250 - 10 over unders on 2:00

100 - sprint free (:57)

50 - ez

3000 total

Today no one was in the pool except me, so I went pretty well. I tried to keep the rage, but was unable to keep it to the extreme like I was last night.

Last night I went to a stake dance. Sarah was there. I danced with her and after that she took off without really saying goodbye, so I followed her thinking she was going to get a drink and wanted me to follow. She went to talk to some girlfriends and I stood back a few feet to not step in her circle unless she wanted. Obviously she didn't because she saw me and took off again. I sat down for a few minutes, and the brain was just a moving trying to figure out what just happened.

I went home and happened to go into Chris' room and noticed a dance picture with 3 couples forming a pyramid. Guess who was on the top with the prettiest smile - you got it, Sarah. I was so filled with anger I sucked on about 5 lollipops and did calisthenics in my room for an hour and a half and listened to Nine Inch Nails and dude I haven't done this in a while ....

But I cut myself. I was so insane like I was before my mission that I cut myself to enjoy the pain. For I would rather feel physical pain than emotional pain. So I bled on my right biceps for a while and it burned. I must admit it did feel good compared to the pain I was feeling in my heart just moments before.

I went to bed around 11:30 and tried to conjure up that anger in the morning so I could keep that energy it gave me. Plus the feeling of physical strength I felt that night. But it hasn't stayed like I wanted. It really is too bad that emotion comes and goes like this. That is my biggest problem with the mind, is that we are so spontaneous with our feelings. They don't last as long as we wish.

I hope Sarah says "No" to going to the formal with me. But I don't think she will have the nerve. If I could go back in time I wouldn't have asked her. But who knows she might change and things might actually work out - but I highly doubt it.

She has already had two strikes against her - one more and she is history dude.

25 Jan 1994

600 - 300 warmup, 300 kick

500 - 10 x 50's (25 fly sprint, 25 fly ez) on 1:30

400 - 4 x 100's free under 1:00 on 3:00

100 - ez

200 - 8 x 25's fly sprint under :15 on 1:00

400 - 4 x 100's free under 1:05 on 3:00

50 - fly under :30

50 - ez

200 - 100 free kick, 100 fly kick

400 - 4 x 100's free under 1:10 on 2:00

100 - ez

3000 total

I finished this workout and all goals were met. I bought some lollipops to give me a sugar rush on the way to the pool. Today I asked Sarah to the Valentine's formal and so that gave me a rush.

24 Jan 1994

400 - 200 swim, 200 kick

500 - speed play

200 - free sprint (goal 2:05, got 1st 100 -:55, total 2:03)

200 - ez

100 - free sprint (goal under :57, got :55)

100 - ez

800 - 10 x 75's (25 fly kick, 25 fly, 25 free) on 2:00

100 - ez

50 - fly sprint (goal under :29, got :30)

50 - fly sprint (goal :30, got :30)

2300 total

I felt really good about that 200. I looked up at the 100 split and saw that I had a :55 100. I wanted to get it under 2:00 at that point, but ended up with a 2:03. I did a good job of psyching up for it. Also the 100 free went well. That one fast guy from last week came, except he brought a friend who slowed him down, and he swam a 100 fly in 1:13. I want to get the 100 fly under 1:00 ath the Ricks meet. And I want to get my 100 free below :50! It is going to take alot of work to get those goals but they are reachable if I keep working out and getting my mind full of rage during sprints. It really helps. I wrote a poem about rage in my list of poems. It is about getting psyched before swimming.

22 Jan 1994

400 - 400 Warm up

600 - 8 x 75's fast on 1:10 (first 25 fly)

200 - 4 x 50's on 1:00

200 - kick

1000 - 8 x 125's pull on 1:45

450 - 6 x 75's IM on 1:30

200 - ez

50 - fly sprint (get under :30)

3100 total

21 Jan 1994 - No chicks = rage

800 - 400 swim, 200 kick, 200 pull

500 - 10 x 50's kick free, fly on 2:00 (beat :55)

250 - 10 x 25's fly breath every 3 strokes on 1:00

100 - ez

50 - fly sprint (got :30)

400 - 4 x 100's free on 3:00, get under 1:00 (:59,1:00,:03,:03)

200 - IM ez

400 - 4 x 100's free on 3:00 get under 1:05 (:02,:03,:05,:03)

200 - free ez

400 - 4 x 100's free on 2:00 get under 1:10 (all under 1:10)

50 - ez

100 - under 1:00 free 100 (1:02)

3450 total

I felt good about this workout. Especially the :30 50 fly. I was impressed that I was able to get those first 4 x 100's close to the goal. The rest of the 100's I beat the goal I set.

The reason I was stoked was because there is a girl's choice dance tonight, and no girl asked me. Not that I am acquainted with too many girls. Two possibilities and neither took the opportunity. I remember the way it was my first semester. I thought this semester would be better. I still am in a girl famine. I was quite angry contemplating this fact so it gave me the rage I needed to finish this workout and to get the times I needed.

19 Jan 1994

600 - 200 swim, kick, pull

750 - 10 x 75's fly (25 reg, 25 rt, lt ez, 25 reg.) on 2:00

250 - 10 x 25's free good push off and kick on 1:00

500 - 10 x 50's descending stroking on 1:00

50 - sprint fly (got below :31)

300 - ez kicking

2450 total

This workout was one of the easiest workouts I've done since coming home. No pressure, just did it. Except I had planned on doing a few more set but it got crowded and I was ready to say forget it. I just wanted to get a good time in the 50 fly. I was pleased to get a :31.

17 Jan 1994

800 - 400 swim, 400 kick

600 - 8 x 75's fast on 1:10

1000 - 5 x 200 reverse IM's on 4:00

500 - 10 x 50 reverse IM's on 1:50

50 - ez

100 - sprint (get under 1:00)

400 - warmdown

3450 total

I cramped up pretty bad today. I wasn't too upset because I went skiing all day and I did this workout just hours after I was done. I am bruised on my butt from falling, but I was improving drastically today. I feel like I can say "I can ski" if someone were to ask me.

About halfway through the workout, some guy came in and swam 10 x 100's on 2:00 and he was nailing the first one on 1:03 and the last one on 1:08. I was impressed. He tried racing me, but I let him go because I was doing IM's and there was no way I could keep up. He was talking to another swimmer there and asked him if he was going into the Intramural swim meet for Ricks. I see this guy as my main competitor. However, we will see how many times he comes to workout. I am prepared to beat him, no matter how fast he swims in workouts and how long he can keep his endurance. I am stoked to beat him. I have already put down a few pointers before a race.

1. Visualize the race

2. Pray

3. stretch (so you don't cramp up)

4. Eat a good breakfast with lots of carbohydrates

5. Sleep the night before well.

6. Drink OJ 15-30 minutes before the race

7. Get ticked off. Get psyched.

I was even thinking about shaving my head, but please! This is only fetchin' Ricks College. I can handle it without even shaving my arms or legs. I'll let the mind overtake the weakness of my body.

15 Jan 1994

600 - 200 free, 200 kick, 100 breast, 100 back

600 - 12 x 50's free (descending stroking) on 1:15

800 - 8 x 100's free (concentrate on turns, make sure to get a good kick off the wall and not breath until about 1/2 way) on 2:00

900 - 12 x 75's (25 fly, back, breast. 25 back, breast, free. 25 breast, free, fly) on 1:40

400 - kick (fly)

200 - ez

3500 total

14 Jan 1994

400 - Warmup 200 free, 200 kick

475 - S - 19 x 25's free on :50

25 - A - 1 x 25 (get :13)

450 - R - 18 x 25's free on :50

25 - A - 1 x 25 (beat last A)

200 - H - 8 x 25's free on :45

25 - ez

600 - 6 x 100's kick fly and free on 2:30

1000 - 10 x 100's on 2:00 (50 split and 100 beat 1:10)

3200 total

Today I met Sherri Stone. She is a lady in her mid thirties who is coaching a couple other kids that swim the same time I do. She is wanting to get a swim meet going for Ricks Intramurals. She knows many swimmers down in Salt Lake. She knows Robynn and Kristen, and Jennifer Waterbury. We talked for quite a while about the swim teams and people who swim in Salt Lake. It was fun. I got complimented today by a few people on my swimming.

Which is only because I was sprinting mainly today.

This here workout is dedicated to Sarah Madsen who taught me to ski last Thursday. She is so cool. I am asking her out for tonight. May more than just this workout be dedicated to her!

13 Jan 1994

150 - 3 x 50's choice

400 - 1 x 400's free (4:57)

600 - 12 x 50's 25 fly, 25 free, 25 back, 25 breast and so on.

100 - fast! ( :58)

500 - 10 x 50's specialty on 45 seconds

500 - 10 suicides (first 50 free - 5 breaths down, 4 back, and so on. Last 50 no breath)

200 - ez

2450 total

I was in a terrrible mood today and this workout was the highlight of my day. Very boring day today. If it weren't for this workout I would say that this day was the most worthless day I have had in my life. Both of my classes today were crap. Sarah didn't show up for Ballroom, and Computers was just a lab/work day. I am already ahead two chapters in that class so I could have done something else, but didn't know that role wasn't going to be taken. Getting a 58 on the 100 was what made my day worth something.

I concentrated on making my mind control my body. I made myself psychologically very angry making me swim faster.

11 Jan 1994

300 - 300 warmup

200 - IM

500 - 10 x 50's 25 fly, free, 25 fly, back, 25 fly, breast, 25 fly, fly,25 fly, free..each 25 :45

300 - 3 x 100's on 2:00 all under 1:10

100 - ez

1400 total

Today I swam at 12 noon instead of 5:00 because I am going skiing with Sarah Madsen. She is my ballroom partner. We are going to Kelly's Canyon. She has the honour of being the one to teach my first lesson in skiing.

Swimming today was boring and difficult.

10 Jan 1994

600 - 200 swim, kick, swim warmup

500 - 10 x 50's touch and pull on 1:00

300 - 6 x 50's kick

200 - 2 x 100's Sprint each 100 (:58, 1:02)

100 - back

200 - 8 x 25's Grounder and let out air for 2 sec then push off wall and swim 25 w/no breath

200 - 8 over unders

875 - 9 x 75's fly 25, back 25, breast 25

125 - ez

3100 total

I felt really good about that 100 under 1:00! I totally expected to get about a 1:05 and then I look up at the end and see a :58 second 100! I didn't even jump in, plus I had a Ricks suit on (which has about 5 pounds of drag on it) so I was thrilled with that set.

The last set I was very tempted to just quit. But I followed through and finished the workout. Very crowded pool and then when I finished there was hardly anyone there. I think the reason why I got under 1:00 in the 100 was because before I went under the water and pulled my hair, yelled and got myself mad and acted like a madman and dude does it work. I need to keep that in mind before races and I will swim faster

8 Jan 1994

500 - 200 free, 150 back, 100 breast, 50 fly warmup

1200 - 8 x 75's on 2:00 25 left, right, riffle (fingers skim water on the way back)

8 x 50's build up free on 1:15 (Start slow end fast)

8 x 25's sprint w/2 breaths on :45 sec

450 - 6 x 75's kick on 1:40

400 - 8 texas 50's on 1:15 (3 flipturns per 50)

HOW TOUGH ARE YOU 25's

250 - 10 x 25's on :25 rest for 30

200 - 8 x 25's on :20

100 - ez

3100 total

I felt better about this workout. I just got back from finishing lab in Accounting. I had a good Corn Flakes breakfast and jammed today's swimming. Plus pretty girls there, so that helped me swim faster.

7 Jan 1994

300 - 300 Warmup every 4th 25 fly

1000 - 1000 free (50,100,150,200,200,150,100,50) rest 30 after every set

500 - 5 x 100's kick on 2:15

400 - 8 x 50's 4 x 50's on 1:00, 4 x 50's on :50 sec

100 - EZ

2300 total

I simply had no energy today, so I did a simple workout today. I crawled home afterwards. I was so tired and I swam quite slow today. I didn't feel very good about today's workout. Maybe tomorrow.

6 Jan 1994

500 - Warmup 500 free

1500 - 5 x 100 free 1 breath every 3 strokes, 5 x 100 free 1 breath every 4 strokes, 5 x 100 free 1 breath every 5 strokes all on 1:40

800 - 8 x 100 IMs

100 - ez

2900 total

This was the first real workout here at Ricks where I didn't feel like a weak poofter afterwards. No lane lines, thus it was very wavy. I worked out just after I spent 3 hours in computer lab. My head was spinning terribly from concentration. After the workout I felt completely better.

Except now I want to go to bed.

5 Jan 1994

600 - 600 Warmup every 4th 25 fly

900 - 6 sets of 75,50,25 75 on 1:30, 50 on 1:15, 25 on :40

200 - ez

1700 total

I will be the TA for INT swimming for Sister Lilljenquist. I am looking forward to next wednesday.

3 Jan 1994

400 - 400 Warmup

200 - 200 Kick

800 - 8 x 100's free on 2:00

100 - EZ

1550 total

Today was my first day swimming here at Ricks. The pool was very hot and I died early. I planned out a 3400 w/o but cheated and left early.

I kept getting terrible cramps in the arch of my foot. I tried masseusing it but it didn't really help.

Ricks finally invested in a clock to work out to. Same old ugly and uncomfortable swim shorts though.