Tuesday, March 15, 1994

15 Mar 1994

6:00 am rise and shine sucker!

600 - swim

400 - 2 x 200's pull with ankles tied

100 - 50 fly tied ankles, 50 fly normal

100 - ez

100 - fast

100 - warm down

1400 total

Last night I called Sarah and she was sleeping (yeah right). I was angry and went in the kitchen and it was a craphole as normal and I was having a frustrating day as it was and yelled out "Do your own fetchin dish!" Went into my room and Shawn comes in to mock and I was pissed. I pushed him out of the doorway and said "get the hell out of here!" I tried to go to bed and then Murray comes in and picks up my phone and says "What's her number?" I said "forget it, just let me sleep" After a minute of persisting to call her to let her have it, he left and I listened to Nine Inch Nails again. I have got to do something about this. Maybe I should trade Jaron back that CD. It makes me keep that anger in and it isn't good.

But this morning I felt a little better and went swimming at 6:00. It was crowded and then about 5 minutes after I got in I was the only one in the pool. I didn't have much energy because I had no food in me except for a pancake I just ate, but I can't derive energy from something like that in minutes so I only did 1400. I planned on swimming a mile straight but after 600 got a sideache.

I might as well type up this afternoons workout.

400 - 200 IM, 200 free

750 - 10 x 75's kick 1st 25 fly, choice, fly

1000 - 4 x 100 IMs on 2:00, 2 x 100 IM's on 2:00, 200 IM

1200 - 12 x 100's descend 1 - 4

1st 100 - 2:00

2nd - 1:45

3rd - 1:30 last one on 1:00

50 - 2 underwater pulls

50 - ez

3450 total

Today was a good day. I wrote Sarah a little note today. It said, "Sarah -

Saturday comes quickly. I'll just dance with my cousin.

'Sides you would rather be with your friends. Right. Gords"

So that was the last straw and I was the one to take it. I have a problem looking back and wondering what she is thinking, but I am getting very close to forgeting her. I called Emily Adams tonight to ask her out to see the Fugitive but she wasn't home. I left a message.

Monday, March 14, 1994

14 Mar 1994

900 - 500 swim, 200 pull, 200 kick

600 - 3 x 200's descending on 4:00

400 - 4 x 100's descending on 2:00

500 - 10 x 50's alternate free and fly on 1:00 and 2:00

100 - ez

500 - 10 x 50's fly kick on 1:15

200 - 2 x 100's fast (under 1:00)

300 - ez

3500 total

I nearly gave up on the 100's but persisted thankfully. Sarah was lifeguarding and I tried not to show any attention to her. After she left she came back and swam for a bit with Kelly. Who also made me angry as she was telling me her reason for not playing cards yesterday was because she didn't know why I called her. To play cards you stupid wench! Not everything a guy asks has fetchin double meanings.

Sarah told me "Don't make yourself a stranger." Look who's talking. I said sorry and kept on swimming. I did the last 2 100's on :55.

Sarah asked me just before I got out if she could still do the dance competition this weekend with me. I said I don't know if we can get it down by then. I think she knows I'm pissed and that is good. I don't want to be rude but I don't want her to think she has me this time.

She asked me to call her tonight. I bet it will be a lengthy discussion about what is wrong.

Saturday, March 12, 1994

Pouting

800 - 500 swim, 300 kick

1000 - 10 x 100's free on 3:00 getting below 1:05

100 - ez

1900 total

I had a 3800 workout made up but only did this much because I was kind of tired from playing full court BB with the guys here. I played pretty good for an RM with not much playing time after the mission.

Also Sarah began working after the last 100 so I quit because I don't even want to swim in her presence anymore. She waved at me and I nodded and spit water in her direction when she wasn't looking. I got out when she wasn't looking either so I wouldn't have to return my kickboard and clock. Just left it all there for her to get herself.

I wanted to go to the dance so bad but couldn't think of anyone to go with so I watched Saturday night live in the lounge instead.

Friday, March 11, 1994

Gettin' Dogged

800 - 500 swim, 300 kick

1000 - 5 x 200's on 4:00 long stretchers

1500 - 60 x 25's fly on 1:00

3300 total

Today I swam at 3:00 because I was in the mood to do something physical. Sarah dogged me hard at 3:00. I asked her to the dance tonight but she said no because she was going with a bunch of friends. I guess I am not a friend. So I left and she told me to call her or come to swim while she was at work tomorrow.

Bull! It is over! I came home and ripped up her picture and all things that reminded me of her. I was extremely angry and started doing calisthenics to Nine Ince Nails but went swimming after 20 minutes of it.

I had planned on doing 100 x 25's fly but 1:00 is to much rest. Plus everyone was getting in my way so I felt content with 60 and left.

Shawn played racquetball with me since we were the only ones home this weekend. I was glad rather than stay at home and feel sad over Sarah's loss.

Thursday, March 10, 1994

Ricks College Intramural Swim Meet

Ricks Intramural meet -

50 free - I wanted a :23 and got :23.66. I came in 3rd by a hair.

100 IM - I wanted a 1:10 and got 1:03.82. I came in 4th.

50 fly - :26. I got a :26.26 I took first in this event.

100 free - I wanted :49 and got :50.9. I came in first in this event.

200 free - I wanted a 1:55 and got a 1:55.61. I also came in first in this event.

There were 9 events and I swam 5. Taking first in three of those.

Bryan came in first overall as he swam every event. I came in 3rd overall which aint too bad seeing that I didn't even swim 4 events.

I am pleased with these times as they are all break my personal records.

Jaron, Shawn and Chris and Ryon and Tammi all came to support me. I am grateful for that. It means alot.

I also went to inservice today too because Zirker wanted me to join in on it. I saw him today to ask him if we could take off the swim suits to expose our speedos. He said it was up to Rydalch. Bryan did it anyways and none of the guards did anything about it, so I took mine off for the 100 and 200 free.

Tuesday, March 8, 1994

8 Mar 1994

Today we swam probably 400 yards. We sprinted and did turns and talked about tomorrow and then went to the meeting where we found out that it is not going to be tomorrow but the next day.

I went shopping earlier and bought a trout. I ate it tonight and also some rice. I got plenty of carbohydrates. I am so psyched for Thursday. I swam a :52 100 free today w/o blocks.

Friday, March 4, 1994

4 Mar 1994

500 - free warmup

200 - 4 x 50's free race each other with shirts

100 - 4 x 25's race w/ shirts

flip turns

100 - free sprint (:53)

100 - ez

1000 total

We talked about shaving and I went home and shaved. I am now bald as heck. I like it though. I am stoked for getting a :50 100 free. I want it so bad, I am going crazy.

Thursday, March 3, 1994

3 Mar 1994 - Tapering

500 warmup

50's fast and starts etc.

Bryan and I are tapering for next week.

I did a :54 100 free.

Wednesday, March 2, 1994

2 Mar 1994

500 - warmup

1000 - 5 x 100's IM on 1:50, 5 x 100's free on 1:45 (all under 1:04)

500 - 5 x 100's kick on 2:30

500 - 20 x Australian 25's fast on 1:00

100 - sprint (beat Monday's 100 time)

200 - ez

2800 total

Monday, February 28, 1994

28 Feb 1994

300 - warmup

50 - free race vs. Bryan (I got :27 he got :25)

600 - 12 x 50's 4 on :50, :45, :40

50 - ez

300 - 6 x 50's on :45

600 - 6 x 100's on 1:25

300 - 6 x 50's on :35

300 - 3 x 100's first 2 on 1:10, :15

200 - 2 x 100's on 1:10

100 - sprint (:57)

100 - 8 x 25's sprint on :45 under :15

100 - ez

3000 total

Today Bryan and I sprinted. We raced and he beat me in the first 50 at the beginning of the workout. I beat him the rest of the the workout though. It was awesome. Sarah came and swam. I tried to involve her, but she was doing distance sets and she didn't want to keep up with us. I understood and felt bad because I wanted to be with her. We talked while Bryan did his last 100. We are doing some ballroom practice tomorrow night. We are also taking biking together.

She asked me to call her tonight. I love it when she leads me on. I just hope that it is sincere. I haven't told her to her face that I love her, nor have I kissed her. But I constantly think of my future with her and desire to marry her.